I get it. I’m predictable. Well … for the most part, at least. And especially lately.
For instance, if you predicted that breakfast would look a lot like this…
ginger preserves? check.
a peach might be slightly unpredictable – but only if i’m grasping at straws. granola is also predictable of me – while i was never a fan of granola on hot oats, i just love the crunch it gives to overnighters.
and obviously iced coffee was present. green mountain? check.
if you predicted that i went to the barn to see this cute little face…
if you predicted that i would just dote on him…you would be correct.
if you predicted that my lunch today would look a lot like this…
when’s the last time i didn’t pack a sandwich for lunch at work? and it’s practically a given that anytime broccoli appears at dinner, i’ve made extra just for use in a sandwich with a boatload of garlic hummus, feta, tomato sauce, and roasted broccoli.
if you predicted that to accompany my sandwich i would have a piece of fruit and my freshly made crackers from yesterday…
you guys can read me like a book!
if you predicted that my snacks would look a little something like this…
okay, so you’d actually be correct in that i intended to eat all this for snack – but in actuality, my appetite was a little slow today. i munched on the fruit strip mid-morning, and had just a portion of my homemade “chunk” of energy in the afternoon.
i am fairly certain, however – that this is a cursed larabar. i don’t think i can count on two hands how often i’ve taken a picture of it, intending to eat it – only for it to be either pushed aside for another bar, or not needed.
if you predicted that an iced coffee would be had at work, however – you would be correct.
Dinner, however? maybe not quite as predictable.
still a very “jess” meal – but i can’t remember the last time i had polenta! this pretty lady has been asking for polenta ideas, which i think is what got me craving it tonight. i haven’t had it often because the last time i bought a new bag of cornmeal, i purchased medium grind cornmeal accidentally, rather than the fine grind that becomes lovingly known as polenta. i just combined the medium grind into the fine grind bag – so tonight i just dumped it all out into a new canister, which put the fine grind on top. hence…polenta! i will probably try seeing if i can process the coarser ground stuff and get a finer texture – but didn’t feel like whipping it out tonight.
so – i combined old with new for dinner! some of the beanballs and eggplant i made sunday, on top of a “polenta patty” mixed with fresh garden tomato. and of course, feta cheese.
but on my [long] drive home, i got to thinking – do i mind being predictable, going about my daily life in nearly the same fashion day in and day out? do i regret how i used to be, now that i’ve “mellowed out”? i mean – i wasn’t always predictable. i used to have a pretty big social life, actually – whereas now i only “go out” every so often, and it’s never until 3am doing god-only-knows-what. i think my freshman year i was home and in bed before midnight maybe once or twice. actually – i take that back…during vacation i was probably home a lot, but that’s only a week at a time 😉 but do i regret that? no. because who knows who i would be right now if i never made the choices i did. would i respect myself as much as i do now? would i be as close with my mom as i’ve become? would the little things like the morning sunlight shining across teddie’s face, catching the glint in his eye just right, mean so much to me? would i love life as much as i do now? i mean, i’m not saying i was out doing terrible things all night long, but i certainly could have found a more conductive way to spend my freshman year.
like doing schoolwork and going to class, but i digress.
i guess my point is, i don’t mind living a quiet, peaceful life, but nor do i regret that i wasn’t always this way. i’m glad i’ve made the decisions i have, and learned from them whether it’s because it was a bad choice or a good one. i don’t want my life handed to me on a silver platter. i want to earn everything myself. i want to make my own decisions. i know i can – we can do anything we set our minds to.
…aaaaand, just because i love this song so dang much, listen to this while you stew about the life you live:
what about you – are you predictable? do you mind?
are you glad you’ve made the decisions you’ve made, good or bad?
(and nooo, this isn’t just an excuse for being a homebody 😉 )